Dark Whispers of the heart

Whisper your darkest secrets into my ear. Invade my soul with what you have inside of yours. Your darkness is my weakness. My light is yours. Twisted in a truth that brought us colliding into a world of disbelief. My soul recognized you upon the first glance of your heart. Every beat beckoning me, pulling me in, craving you. There is a tide of change the pulls us in and out of time we share. One that is always solvent in the heart and minds of those who are cradling the fear of existence. Trying as it might be, relish in this moment, and know that what is creeping into my heart is the bloodshed of an evolving beating organ. I will no longer devour the one that stands before me but sweep you into my soul, envelop you into my thoughts, and know that each night as it cast its spell, we will see, the whispered words of yesterday are the heart’s desires of today.

Missed Appointment

I am missing the vibrant life that once lived in me. Now A heart cratered by your disappearance. There is anguish that lives in my soul while it crumbles to dust. Deceased fears are consuming every thought. I am here in the vast darkness wringing my life dry of this hurt that you once gave to me. I will no longer begin to feel the time that was captured and caged. Nothing stops anymore. Nothing is daunting. I am here to seek a truth that has drowned in my self-hate. Nailed to my cross, I will see, the soul that left this earth was not the life that was granted to me. Into the ether I will cast my soul, on top of shamed raged I will hide. You seek me out in order to bury me in the dust.  Hollowed frame and shattered heart, blue in love, and sad fate. I am no longer yours to torment…I now belong to the silence that I create.

I died today

I died today…a death worse than the one that will end my life…words spilling over to show me the lies. The fate of my time is no longer with you, it is the path I spent my last days on. You speak what I want to hear, you mirror my desires because it’s what will appease me. I am no one to you and I never will be…out of millions I am still the same…a faceless person in a group of millions. I knew what I was doing was wrong, I knew that what I felt was wrong, I knew what I wanted wasn’t you but the attention I lacked. I am decaying slowly…I am dying a death of a thousand fates…there are many reasons why I need to walk away and many that hurt more…same cycle, different game. That is all I am to you, a game to fill your time with…there is no truth in what you say and if you say there is, you are lying to yourself. I feel ashamed, I feel alone, I feel like I wronged my only love…myself. No one will ever love me…no one will ever see the person before them is the one that is meant to be.

Not there

The loss of you is the loss of me. The hurt in you is the hurt in me. I crumble to the existence that I am left with. No longer am I able to grasp a day of your flesh like I once did. Time has traveled over my heart and crushed it to dust. You made it clear the moment you spoke silence to me. I can reach for you and you evaporate into the air. My eyes look for you in a space that holds you close. You aren’t there…what have I done to deserve this tattered soul? What have I done to receive this dying fate…What have I done for you to walk away from me? There is a groove in my heart that is fleeting of space, it housed you once, but it won’t house you again. The moment you said nothing, was the moment you made it clear, I am not a priority and will never be held dear.

Leaving me

Your silence is deafening. You know how to crush a heart that beats deeply for you. The sadness that drips from my eyes are tears of a hell that you did create.  Slicing my veins and allowing life to flow, I will free myself from you. A death so rare, one so meek, I will never be the one you seek. In a quiet I will sit, watching the pale smile fade from my face. Clouded by death, I will continue to let go and say good bye. I will no longer expect a word from you, nothing left to give, I will watch my fate turn into something more. Excavating a new organ from a being. I will invade this time. Shadowed by the past and freeing the future, you can sink into your own space and soon you will see, the life you left made a happier me.

Perfect Color

Just under my skin hides secrets you know nothing about…I am severing my life just below the surface…scattering the contents of my soul all over the black night. Crawling into the catacombs that hold my dying heart…lying next to my beating life and watching it slowly die…slowing down to non-existance…shedding tears for a life no one cared for. Gripping the beating organ and slowly crushing my heart…this is how you made me feel. Nothing left to have inside of me, nothing left beside me, nothing left at all…my life is now escaping me…darkening…the quiet night…the quiet end…all that is left is me. Tragic peace taking hold…life fleeting…skin blueing…heart dying…breath leaving…decaying…death…what a perfect color…on me.

No Sympathy

The disintegration of my essence happened when you allowed me to gouge and sever my own throat. Not once did you embrace me like you cared. I am deeply convicted into a realm that will bring you to your knees as I walk away with my life dripping from me. You’re days of squandering the trivial pieces of my life are over. I will slip silently into the grave that houses my decaying soul…the soul you shattered with each word you spoke. Downing the everclear that is slowly filling my veins with the rage you seared into me. There is no truth in this life, there is faith in this life, there is no hope…you are dragging me down into a vat of nonexistence and I am done…quiet your mouth and breath this in…your are the hell that this world created and I will douse you out with my disappearance. Don’t think for one second I even cared…I didn’t and you will see that as I slash my life to pieces and leave you holding my remains.

Impaired

A symphony of sounds placates my head at night. You think the most you have to give is the least of your worries. I have not once recalled the moment you walked away from me, creating a silence so deep my soul cracked in a way no one can fix. Don’t think for once my survival was created by you. I am the reason I am here. I am the reason you are gone. Shoveling the words you spoke to me into the black hole of misery you swarmed me with. I do not seek the tragedy you spewed at me daily. You are the one traveling in the misery you shaped through the time we created on a planet that no longer travels the sun. In the hour you see me releasing the violent era we shared you will see, the one you created is no longer me.

Still of the Night

In the quiet of the night, I listen for your beating heart…distance is nothing when I listen for the calm I seek. The stars are lanterns for my soul as I search for the same one you see. Lying still pursuing the air you breathe. Sharing a moment in a place with everything is fleeting. Salvaging time that was wasted but now lost. Becoming one in the creation of the unknown, seeking refuge in the silence that is spoken. Long before the time was granted, we fought through the ashes of a past that left us shadowed by decaying hearts. Beating in a silence that was calling to the other, singing in a rhythm that can only be heard by each other. My dreams of the day are filled with you, my dreams of the night are my desires of you. To feel your warmth next to me will be the truth I have always been seeking.

Cold Slumber

Gathering the souls of the weak, I cage you in a place of least resistance. You thrive on the death of my heart, you love to see it break down into black smoldering ash of a mess that you created. You are the very demon that allowed me to suffer in this shallow world that we created. Traveling through the clouded memories you left me with, I can’t see where you ever said you loved me. I am slowly sinking into a place of cold despair. Reaching for the very hand that tossed me there, you slice my wrist to let my life ribbon out of me. Lying in a grave of darkening days, I will slumber my fate into the hands of a soul who lives solely on fear. Salted life leaving my eyes and I say my last goodbye. I close my eyes, I breathe my last breath, I whisper your name. Collapsing into the silence that has always been the only one there.

Slipping away

Climb inside of me and pump this heart of mine…I’m losing touch with reality…the life I’m living is useless…I am tired and shrinking into the black hole of non-existence. There is no rhythm left to being shackled to an idea that I created in my warped brain of silence. I am at a rivalry with my own thoughts. There is tragedy in each word I say. Collapsing into the shell of existence I was born into, I can’t hold onto the truth that was showered on me as I lie dying. Quietly I seek the shadow that holds out his hand. Gripping a world that is made of nothing, I can overcome this life and fall peacefully into a death that will be my legend. Nothing more to be said, nothing less to be left, at this time I will draw my last breathe and cradle the hand that shrinks me…blue lips…red eyes…pale skin…the colors of peace as I slip into the night that created me.

Letting Go

There is a song that brings the downfall of the hearts that beat in a world that no longer feels the existence of the true meaning of life. It brings us down to the depths of the hell we have purchased when we first found the path we spewed from our veins. Traveling to the destiny that we assigned ourselves when we found each other. Carrying the tune that was never to be spoken again as we search for the light that doesn’t shine. You are the one that stole the torches that illuminate the gravitational pull inside of my brain. I search for you…I close my eyes to hear the siren song that no one sings…the song that guides my heart to yours, the song that will crumble the death that is built up inside of me. The one that violates all sense of origin…severing each limb of scattered thoughts that rummage the grooves of my brain. A faith of blinding hate begins to take over this welded heart of mine. No longer will you have the strength to keep moving…to keep trying. I am the song that no one sings because I am the song that was captured in a jar of shallow desires and buried under the stones that suffocate the grounding light that you snuffed in me. Twirling in the wind, I am now free…a song of the air that everyone will sing…I am the words on the tongue of the few that believe in the eternal light that you blew out. Carried in the gusts of time that will forever travel the galaxy we journey through, no longer will you need to sing my song, no longer will you need to feel, I am dimmed, I am broken, I am not longer real.

I will find a way

I will creep inside your brain tonight and dance in your dreams with you. I will find a groove in your arms and nestle my nose in the crook of your neck. I will find a way to sooth the demons that play games with your heart. I will find a way…I will find a way…I will whisper in your ear while you sleep, so you know I am always near. I will invade your soul and seal the cracks with the love you deserve. I will find a way…I will find a way. I will heal your pain with the glance of the fire that burns within me. I will wipe your tears that fall and kiss your eyes. I will hold your hand and sit with you while you figure it out. I will find a way…I will find a way…my heart bleeds for you…my heart feels the torment that we have both been through…we are cut from the same cloth…we are like no other and through all of the pain…the demons…the hell…I will find a way to heal you, to love you, to be there for you.

The Unattainable

The truth is that a heart bleeding the life of unattainable love is all the fate I live. The tragic pieces of a faceless youth begin to crumble beside the ashes of a love that never had a chance to be attained. Flesh and bones, graves and stones, I lie in the shadow of a lover that never allowed a flourishing effect of life in me. A pale death will overcome the existence of me if I continue to allow the words dissolve in the grooves of my mind. Cold and trembling lying here remembering a moment that kept me feeding my soul’s worth, but it is no longer. In a shallow grave of tormented rage, I begin to slumber my thoughts that created this demon in me. Clawing at a vanquished brain seizing my hell of ribboned life draining from my wrists. Death’s angel guiding me to a place of peace in order for me to see that my life without you is not the life I was promised.  I will close my eyes, place a hand on my scarred heart, and listen for your footsteps to appear. Freeing me of a prison that I created because I knew the existence of you wouldn’t be easy to know and not attain to quest the thurst inside of me.

Disappearance

The slightest change in the tide is sweeping me out to meet the middle of a world that existed in the true density of my mind. I have nothing more to offer you than a heart bleeding in my hand. Grasping at a truth that only rings of lies. I can’t continue to run in a world of trap synchronicities. Escaping a day that began with the death of me. The tragic truth is, I never existed in your world. I was the only one that obtained a love in a realm of eclipsed time. As age begins to drain from me, I continue to sleep in the grooves of your heart. Casting me out into a cold journey that only holds the hope of a tomorrow that was never shed. I will die in the arms of the one who held me dear for the moment we shared in a piece of vacant truth. Sadly I sing my last song and fade into the light that is lacking gravity. I will choke on the blood that is freely flowing from my carnal desire to live in a world you trapped me in. Slipping away, I will let the color dissolve from my face and turn into the pale hate you whispered into my ear as the last breath of life left me.