Bathed in a cloak of death. I mourn the loss of this soul of mine. I am shattered to dust and see the life I had crumbling before me. Never have I thought I would be on trial with this heart of mine. Serving myself deaths final blow, I will walk into the shadows where no one is meant to go.
As shadowed light cascades my heart, the facade of you grows dim. I hear the melody of your twisted heart beating to the same rhythm as death dressed me in. Time has vanished and left me still. Under the weight of pain I begin this fall from grace. You treated me with razors upon my skin. Letting this life drip out of me and leaving me empty within. Each fallen star screaming in miserable selfless agony as it sheds its shining light. My days are night, my nights are days, but nothing compares to when you walked away leaving me empty again.
A sacred moment of shared space will not bring back the past you gave me. Squeezing the life from my heart, you ravage my soul with shards of glass taken from the traveled seas. Bleeding like a failed soul, my wings begin to fray. Ripping my scars from this heart, I don’t want to see the pieces of you ingrained in me. With a fake smile I raise my eyes to see, the devil himself crying before me.
A translucent heart beating colors of faded memories. There is nothing to see as a shadow of lies clouds me. The eclipsed sun parades its death upon my soul. Sealing cracks of the unknown. Never did I see a face of life before me. Gaunt and dark, the being that is me. I live in a shallow plane of life and wander through a piece of time that are the ruins of my past. You are not the one to save me. I am nothing to save. My eyes are cast down into a puddle of fear as the words you say are the ones I need to hear. You drip truth from your veins as the hell you bring engulfs my frame. I sink into the pit of exile as the one thing you do is torture me. You see me exist, you see me dying inside, you see me face the pain of time. Through it all you never see the love that existed was only created by me.
I am trapped behind a door inside the house that shelters you. The anguish of time is rinsed out by the sullen heart that barely beats. I never knew time would continue to beat me down. The more time lost is more reason to let this life dwindle into nothing. I will never be the one that you see for all I am is the one you made me.
I crave you…your lips left me entangled in your soul. The taste of your essence still dripping from my tongue. Living in memories I never want to leave. The words you speak travel the wind to find me. I lie awake to dream about the moments of time that have nestled into the grooves of my heart. I am being held captive in a world that thrives on you. Each beat of my heart carries the weight of my love… I am blind to everyone else but see the truth in you. No matter how far you are from me, you are always a part of me…
The agony of tragic peace transcends me into a plane of suspended fate. I see nothing but a dark spindle of lies weaving me into the truth. I lie under the blackened sun and see a silhouette of a person that is vague in shamed love. The memories that suppressed themselves into each groove of my heart are now fading out with each move you make. I no longer know what is real because you tell your romantic lies with a smile on your face. I burned my essence into your catacombed heart. You will no longer have the upper hand over me as I lay here tragically in the death I gave to me. Walk away and strive for hate because the love I gave you is now lying in my grave.
As you whisper in my ear, the venom comes seething off your tongue. My veins are rattled with grief as the words you speak are slowing killing me…You revolve in a world that only involves a lifetime of misery. I can’t be caught up in a trap that is strangling the very life out of me. I travel within a realm of deviated deception…You are the very reason I have shrunk into a shell of nothingness. I remain here dying and scraping at a soul that is decayed within me. You, my love, are set free to find the very thing you took away from me.
The Arctic air blows across my naked skin as I sit here in a world dying around me. The world I created is crumbling around me. I can no longer see because of the distance you’ve driven between you and me. My tears saturate my face as I lie in the dark and trace the places you have been. I gouge out my heart and remove it from my frame. The sadness is greater than the time you took to take care for me. The saddness is more than the time it took to undo me.
The truth of tragic sadness encapsulates me into a world without you. Each day is as dark as my nights. There is no room for anyone else in this heart of mine. I sit in a slumber of never waking peace. I call your name in my sleep, I dream of you when I am awake, the haunting of your eyes is the peace I seek. There is nothing more than a few breaths between you and me seeing each other again. My world was dying before I knew you existed, now it’s just a stream of thoughts. I will wait until the air that fills my lungs leaves me, life by life we have sought each other and today we seek again. The love that fills my veins never lived before you. The veil of silence has graced my head as I sit and wait for the very day I can rest my head on your chest and hear the heart, the heart that is beating for me. The absence of you is decaying me. The life I live is fruitless. The love I live is because of you. Take the time you need to gather for battle. This is one we both want to win. A lifelong enduring love that will quiet the world around us and leave them in misery. For all will know that this love does exist, it exists in the life created for you and me.
Erotic Fiction for the imaginative reader
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A Crushed Soul 