Soldered Soul

This nightmare has receded from me…leaving me in a heap of misery. Sulking in the bed of lies I am used to sleeping in. Bittersweet agony engorges my heart as it’s left dying in the hands of the one who created this hellish abyss. The only thing to swallow this heart is death. If you ever believed in me, don’t. The magic of this affair is gone. Left with hurt and strife as my pillar to lean on. The ruins that I face are all in my soul. Trying to surrender into a place of non existence. You are growing tired of me and it is plain to see. Strangle the world that I hold dear and let me be free. Time is a wound upon my nickled heart. Lying awake for one more day as the shackles keep me in place. Truth be told, hell is all I see. Watching you cripple my life into pure fantasy. Exonerate my final dreams and watch me drown. I am living in a cycle that will always keep me bound. Simple and free, tonight I lay my head before you. With a sharp tongue and face full of grief, you will sever this life within me.

The Shine that Dies

We are two halves of the same star. Orbiting a moon that shines its love upon us. Gathering stardust among the milky way. Night after night we shine as one in a graveyard of lights forged to guide the lost. Bound in a world where nothing else matters but the life to these hearts. Fighting through the judgment of others and lack of understanding from many. Lacking the measure to break free of the other. Lacking the triumph absorbed back into the cosmos after the dimming of the lights as the sun rises. There is a world out there waiting to shed its barriers so we can all see, the moment of truth is, the star that shines, the star that dies, both halves are me.

Leaving into the Night

My dying wish is to chase the stars into a night that are scattered with all my dreams. To look into the vast dark sky and know that my place is among the many. I want to see my world go dim as my soul soars into the night. To wander through the ethers while searching for you in that moment of my last light. My world is at peace with each breath I take knowing the world that surrounds me harbors you. The echos of my heartbeat will ring throughout the obscurity.  As you fall to sleep you will dream of a cosmos that once inhabited a love that brought silence to your trance of me. When you think of me, I will be a whisper on the winds as you embed that vision into your soul. Traveling through a time that once kept us still. As you close your eyes tonight remember one thing, this world was a beautiful place with our hearts beating in a rhythm that will never be matched. Your smile, your gaze, you love will go with me into the unknown as I leave this world tonight. Don’t worry my love, I will be with you always, in the night sky, a star for you to view, a light that once shined in life now shines above for you.

 

Two Hearts

You were a thought placed in my heart lifetimes ago. You were the end of a journey that crumbled me to pieces but made me whole again. You told me once you chose me and every day in the waking sun, I choose You. There are not enough stars in the sky for me to tell you how I feel. Your whispered name courses my veins as I think of you at night. Your voice echos my mind as I dream of time with you. Under a candlelit sky, you watch the stars die as we share that moment. Miles has only kept us apart, as the existence of love beats in these two hearts. I have given you a piece of me that not many see, I ask that you keep it safe from many things. If one day, you feel the same, your heart will reside next to mine. Bound in ribbons and devotion at the price of unconditional. A promise I will pay. Devoted to this path, I will see it through until the night sky no longer carries the lights that bring me to you.

Soul of Corrosion

Abandoned and left in this rotting flesh. The heart that beats within my chest is now decayed with the soot of your ruthless lies. You murdered my soul with each word you spoke. You let each piece of existence shroud me in torturous truths. You never guarded me against all the pain this world can give. Nightmares and sharp teeth gnash at my throat as I try to sleep. There is never slumber for the wicked and there is never life when the tireless are drowning in the sorrow handed to them by the one they loved. Tears have fallen and dreams have cracked. I stand here now with a soul of corrosion, trying to piece it back together with the ache you compelled me to swallow. It was an attempt to rid your soul of the death you inhaled from the last path you broke free of. It was on that voyage you saw the shame that could be cast upon many and you chose to pass it on to me. With a ravaged soul I begin to break free, walking away from everything meant for me. No longer will I allow the smoke to blacken me. Working my way out of this abyss, I will surface to see, a world of crushed fate is now a hostile heart beating for me.

The Art of Blame

The torch of blame burns brighter within you than it does for me.  I should have cast you out like the shadow that you are. There is nobody left to blame but yourself, my heart was a gift not a loan and now you’ve left it to crumble like stone. You will shuffle in your own hurt wondering why I have done this to you when everything you said about me was really the torture you put me through. I have suffered long enough now I am walking through the fire that you have lit. One last glance is thrown your way as you understand that I am not the same. I am not here to play your games, I will not be your chess piece planning your next move and one day it’ll be plain to see, all the blame you gave me was the blame meant for you.

Scattered

Evaporating instead of escaping this moment I am in. My thoughts are on Valium. I am a dandelion scattering in the wind. All of my emotions are dying within. The silence bares your name as I close my heart into this nightly grave. Alone in this world, all I am able to see is the grief that has scolded me. The trauma that I have endure day in and day out doesn’t compare to the death of myself in this life. I can’t seem to hide what I no longer have from a world that has everything. More and more I see that the demon that has crippled your heart was the same on that killed me.

The arrival of a new heart is something not many can share. We sit in silence and pretend we are new, when in fact we are just children learning to come up for air.  The very spot you sacrificed your soul is the same spot I found the half eaten rotting corpse that counseled me into becoming the death at the bottom of the ocean. The effort that has been put upon my heart is enough to bring me to a place of my traveled past. I am hurting here as I scrape my veins of this world that scars me. There is nothing social about seeing you suffer as I begin my own stage of pain. Watching you fall is a symphony of euphoria for me as I drink the fountain of life that comes spilling from me.

Slowly the heart comes to a stop as I ground my head with it’s final thoughts. Evolution and revolutions spin this world of mine.  Reluctant becomes a source of a dividing space that inhabits my vagrant thoughts. The flaws in my skin are greater than the accessories that adorn my troubled affection. Lasting in a vein and letting it all free. Breaking bridges and expanding truth. Faith decompressed my soul as the worth in me was set on a tirade. These violent times are to take violent measures as I walk away and be free. Peace is found one last time in all that I seek. Lowering my head and watching me bleed, the life that was before me is now walking out on me.

 

The Promise of Chance

The nights that examine the truth of struggle are nothing more than a moment that I have had with you. Retrieving a past that was saturated with a path that is rotting the soul. Nothing left to view but a decayed corpse of life of yesterday. I am not sure if the world that was traumatized by the skeletal remains of your fate was worth all this difficulty. Striving for a half baked idea instead of seeking volatile lies. I am a servant of a removed society as I bleed through a sacrificed life. Solace and tragic peace located in a ball of uncharted youth. Crammed into a place of existence, I push forth a plan to find a new pilgrimage. Controlled by the night sky, the demon that walks amongst us it the one that kisses you with fear. Sweetly placed into a cage without locks, you feel trapped by the silence that is spent upon you. Digging in deep, seeking a voyage of tranquil peace, the only place to sleep will be under the open sky. Crippled by the sun only to be deceived into slumber. Shadows that dance are filled with traces of my heart as the dark one escapes with my love. Exaunerated by your own tongue, I walk away from the symbols that conceive the doubt I disguise. Pragmatic and joulful there is sin in the stagnant soul you consume. Consuming the essence of each life that walks by you, no longer can one stand to stroll past you. Quiet and still, the world is no longer at your will.

The Agony in Risk

The rivalry in me begins with you. The heart that beats is the only life I have in this world. If you take that, what have I got? I vanish into the night as my thoughts cloud me. Having to pick through each one to find one to fall asleep too is hard when all of them bring torture to the surface. You erased yourself from my life faster than you came into it. My soul is smothered in a nightmare, one that keeps me caged. Laying in a ball and feeling the pain envelop me as I cry the night away. There was solace in your touch and life in your kiss but now all that is here is the pain from taking a risk. My swollen eyes are now all I have from you. Left alone to shelter the storm without a trace of you.

Gliding through a trance state. Starring at the sky. Dark and littered with slowly dying lights. Burning through a galaxy filled with time. I haven’t been able to sleep as the world tumbles around me. My efforts to stay alive are decreasing each day I wake knowing all that was truly never was. There is an illusion in your eyes and strife in your tongue. Lies were spilled. I drank them up like they were all that was keeping me alive. Now the shadows dance and create a life that was only meant to live in my head. Evil is now what resides within my jilted soul. Cramped in finding space to live, it continues to consume the trouble within.

Dismal is the pain that has taken over me. Line by line my heart continues to break with the estrangement you have created with me. Don’t think for a minute the pieces that you left behind were left there for me. Ruined reminders of my fate. Dousing my shattered life with flames. I find the freedom in knowing the ashes that will are left behind are the final resting places of my brain. Blowing them in the wind, I lie back down and let all I once held dear, die within.